Ashley E. Kingsley

Posts Tagged ‘Training’

Running Free

In Uncategorized on June 21, 2008 at 5:01 am

ShoesI got a piece of mail. This is not exciting. However, I realized when I looked at it closely…(rare) it was a fundraiser/race for Pancreatic Cancer.

A few things that are interesting about receiving a mailer about pancreatic cancer: 1) My mom has just conquered pancreatic cancer (only 4% of the people diagnosed with this awful cancer, survive.   2) When my mom was sick (for the last 2 years) I never ONCE looked online at information regarding pancreatic cancer, or any of the procedures she went through. I couldn’t. I did NO research which is totally unlike me.   So, why was I receiving a mailer about PANCREATICA – a 10 mile race to raise money for research?  Hmmm….

I knew I would have to “look into it.”  It took a few days as I was busy with ramping up a new job and traveling.

I thought about it every day. A 10 mile race.  Let’s just say… I have only ever run two miles at the MOST and that was when I was 15 years old.  I also took a running class my first year of college which was not enlightening. I would show up to class for roll call and then run back to my dorm and go to bed. I got a low “C.”

Running is not my thing. Never has been. It hurts. I hate it. I have never wanted to run anywhere, for anything, ever. I have never had the endurance of a runner. I had the strength of a gymnast at one time, but that is it. Oh, and Yoga is my friend. Slow, soft, difficult but quiet.

I decided to run the 10 mile race. I made the choice after someone asked me (right after I got the mailer) “how my mom was doing?”  When I burst into tears and said “she is doing SO well, it is a miracle she is alive,” I knew I needed to do something to heal the pain of the last few years.

Watching my mom go through surgery and suffer so many complications and endless hospital stays, shady diagnosis-es, pain and strife, the unknowing… it was overwhelming. I haven’t had a chance to process the enormity of the situation. We almost lost her several times to complications from the Whipple procedure. We didn’t know if she would still be with us. She is. It is such a blessing.

And now I need to heal. I need to get angry and pissed off. Why does anyone have to get sick? I want to cry for days. I want to process the meaning of my relationship to my mom and how this illness changes us all. I want to be with myself for a while and get through the sadness and on-going fear that I have around the entire experience.

I have committed to training for and running a 10 mile race on September 1, 2008.  I have raised about $750 as of June 20th and my goal is to raise $2000.

I begin training tomorrow morning at 7:00am. Oh, the other thing: I don’t do mornings. Really, I don’t. I have been pissed off at myself all week that I even signed up to do this? Who the hell runs (at all) at 7:00am on a Saturday?

I have so much fear around failing. I keep telling myself “how silly it was for me to do this in the first place… and that there is NO way I will make it through 10 miles. What the hell was I thinking?

I am making myself go. Tomorrow is the first step to training for a run and running to heal. Sometimes you have to follow in order to become a leader.

Tomorrow, I will follow… and the next day and the day after that.

For more information on how to contribute please visit: RUNNING TO HEAL

The White House Project

In Equality, Leadership, Motherhood, Nimble, Politics, Social Media, Women on March 31, 2008 at 4:59 am

WhitehouseProject

I have no idea where I got the email about The White House Project Leadership Training. I am not surprised however, as I tend to sign up for newsletters by the dozen. The newsletter arrived in my email box late one night and I decided to sign up for the training that was coming to Denver, CO. Why not?  The application process was straightforward and I sent it off without hesitation.

I have often toyed with the idea of getting involved in politics and perhaps running for office. This was a perfect segway into my aspirations of getting involved and learning more about the process and what it really does take to run.

*I will share the weekend in several parts as it was vast!*

MISSION:

The White House Project, a national, nonpartisan, not-for-profit organization, 501(c)(3), aims to advance women’s leadership in all communities and sectors, up to the U.S. presidency. By filling the leadership pipeline with a richly diverse, critical mass of women, we make American institutions, businesses and government truly representative. Through multi-platform programs, The White House Project creates a culture where America’s most valuable untapped resource—women—can succeed in all realms.

To advance this mission, The White House Project strives to support women and the issues that allow women to lead in their own lives and in the world. When women leaders bring their voices, vision and leadership to the table alongside men, the debate is more robust and the policy is more inclusive and sustainable. By supporting women and the values that allow women to succeed—the full range of health options, security platforms that utilize all our resources, economic stability for all—we work to create an equitable culture.

FRIDAY NIGHT:

What an amazing night! Let me just start by saying… the enthusiasm was awesome! When women come together is always very powerful because we are not afraid to express what we are passionate about. I was honored to be surrounded by such strength and wisdom. The women ranged in age from 17-65.  The evening kicked off with a ‘Why Women Matter Panel.’

  • Polly Baca – First woman of color to serve in the Colorado State Senate, President and CEO of Latin America Research and Service Agency (LARASA)
  • Nancy McNally – Mayor, City of Westminster
  • Gail Schoettler – Former Ambassador and Lieutenant Governor
  • Suzanne Williams – Colorado State Senator, SD28

As you can see, the panelists were impressive. Their accomplishments great and each one spoke with such integrity.

WOMEN DO MATTER and the reason we have to continue to remind people of this is because of these startling statistics:

If this isn’t enough to make your jaw drop you can visit CAWP for more information.  As you can see, there is a problem. Women need to be at the table having the conversations, leading the decision making process and orchestrating PRO-ACTIVE strategies rather than REACTIVE responses and sometimes no response.

So, yes, it is imperative that women GO, LEAD, RUN!

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